Steph Says Go!

"We're all young and naive still"

  • 25th July
    2014
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What do you feel is key to being successful in the squat?
-In every rep, you must duplicate your form. It must become automatic and the form must be perfect. For me it is actually painful to squat 225 with perfect form because it is so light, but you have to make every rep the same. Don’t be sloppy with something and then think ‘I’ll tighten up my form once the weight gets heavy.’ Every rep is a chance to practice perfect form.
Kirk Karwoski in Tim Henriques’ All About Powerlifting (via thoughtsandsquats)
  • 25th July
    2014
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trust:

i want a relationship but i want them to be like a friend to me, i dont want the relationship to be all about kissing, making out and sex i just wanna hang out with them, and go places, and just have fun wherever we go

(Source: trust, via barbellprincess)

  • 24th July
    2014
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For what it’s worth: it’s never too late to be whoever you want to be. I hope you live a life you’re proud of, and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.
F. Scott Fitzgerald   (via hefuckin)

(Source: babanees, via barbellprincess)

  • 24th July
    2014
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Introverts don’t get lonely if they don’t socialize with a lot of people, but we do get lonely if we don’t have intimate interactions on a regular basis.
I have never related to a quote more in my life than I do this one right here, right now. BAM.  (via kbfoto)

(Source: kbfoto, via barbellprincess)

  • 24th July
    2014
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Folk Fest time. Trampled by Turtles (which I’m late for oops), Hey Rosetta!, and Andrew Bird most notably.

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    2014
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And then by some miracle a sober weeknight booty call was exactly what my head needed.

I mean not exactly a booty call cause we texted all day but I knew I was only going over there at 10pm after he was at a BBQ for sex. So yes, A and I finally did the deed. Aaaaand I’d have to say it was surprisingly unfulfilling. Everything else we’d done in bed up until this point was good so I had no reason to expect sex would be bad. But we were so not compatible it was comical actually. There’s no need to get into more explicit detail but it just did not work. Kind of a weird thing when you both end up just going what is even happening?? Hahaha but funny none the less. Which just goes to show how much I’ve grown up over the past few years because I remember a similar situation in University and I was just mortified at the time thinking it was my fault. This time I never felt uncomfortable or awkward it was just kind of strange but funny and we worked around it. 

Anyways, it was good for my head because as soon as that happened, something clicked. As much as I enjoy spending time with him, maybe if we’re not compatible in bed, it’s just mean to be more of a friends thing. I realize that it was only the first time and it could get better, but when you’re so out of sync on that from the start I don’t think it’s going to become something amazing. I was starting to like him in a more romantic sort of way and this put that to a stop. We can keep practicing. We can keep hanging out. It can be like a friends with benefits type of deal. That could be fun once in a while because whatever it is I no longer feel so attached to the outcome which is really nice. I didn’t need to have a talk with him, I figured my own head out for myself. I have a feeling that we are now both on a much more similar page with the casual-ness of this all. Of course, I don’t think any of that can go on forever so I’m sure at some point we’ll have a conversation and end whatever it is or it will just fade out. But I feel like now that I realize no matter how well we get along, not everything is necessarily in sync or works romantically, that I’m completely okay with that. 

So yeah, I’m sure this sounds like a super abrupt change of heart but something just clicked last night and I was like yes this is all okay. Sometimes that “it” thing just isn’t there with a person no matter how much you may enjoy their company and that is perfectly acceptable. The funny thing here is if you remember at the very start of all this that was kind of where my head was at. I could tell we got a long as something more than friends but wasn’t sure if it was actually romantic or sexual in any way. Turns out I think we’re kind of somewhere in between but that is definitely not enough to build a relationship from. I kind of feel like my head has come full circle in that sense. 

  • 24th July
    2014
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  • 23rd July
    2014
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  • 23rd July
    2014
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Breakfast: ice cream
Because sometimes when you have panic attack and can’t breath at 3am and then finally sleep from 5-12 you eat ice cream as your first meal. Self care or something like that
Lunch: 2 burger patties with ketchup and mustard + cherry tomatoes
Snack: nectarine
Dinner: baked cod with pesto and roasted yellow beans. Plus a glass of red wine because necessary. 

Breakfast: ice cream

Because sometimes when you have panic attack and can’t breath at 3am and then finally sleep from 5-12 you eat ice cream as your first meal. Self care or something like that

Lunch: 2 burger patties with ketchup and mustard + cherry tomatoes

Snack: nectarine

Dinner: baked cod with pesto and roasted yellow beans. Plus a glass of red wine because necessary. 

  • 23rd July
    2014
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CrossFit 07/23/2014

Skill/Strength work: 3x10 strict pull ups (used blue + purple band)

3x10 ring dips (used blue band)

Next time I will decrease the band on my ring dips. Pull ups are frustrating as shit. I literally haven’t made any improvement since October. Lame. 

WOD:

3 Rounds
10 Ring Rows
10 Push-ups
10 Power Cleans @ 135/95#

Post Times

Quick workout today. Finished in 9:02. Push ups from knees, ring rows at an incline, 85# for cleans. I maybe could have done 95# but that would have been super tough. And we spent so much time working on form and different cues for the shrug that I wanted to practice that. Cleans were legit feeling good tonight and Coach Blake said they were looking a lot better. So that’s nice. Still need to work on faster elbows. 

  • 23rd July
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