Steph Says Go!

"We're all young and naive still"

  • 2nd September
    2014
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A guy I was talking to was genuinely shocked that I’m finding my online Human Anatomy and Physiology course challenging and confusing at times since ya know the human body is kind of complex. He told me he thought the human body was just skin, bones and muscle so what’s so hard about that.
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  • 2nd September
    2014
  • 02

Today I woke up feeling even worse than I have been so I’m eating soup. I’m aware that this canned soup is not Whole 30 compliant and I really don’t give a shit because I feel like crap. Gut issues are still on going. I’m going to try a laxative as that may resolve some issues and my Mom who’s a nurse agrees it’s good to try. If that doesn’t work in the next few days I’ll be off to the doctor. I also woke up today with really stuffed sinuses and an extremely sore throat with swollen lymph glands. Hence the soup and tea. I really do not know what’s going on with my body but this is a bit ridiculous. I just needed something warm and soothing on my throat and I don’t think it’s a sin to eat soup when you’re sick. It does make it a bit difficult to care about Whole 30 when you’re feeling like garbage. Being sick is not really the ideal time to start. I don’t feel guilty, just an FYI so that I’m being honest with this whole thing. 

  • 2nd September
    2014
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One day, I realized he might not exist. My soulmate, I mean.

I realized there might not be someone walking around this earth just waiting to meet me. Someone with a private world just as intricate as mine that, one day, I would get to share and be a part of and know.

And I realized I was keeping a vacant spot in my heart for this person who might not exist. That I wasn’t allowing myself to be whole because how could I be whole with my other half missing?

It was an excuse, of course. A simple view of life that would exempt me from having to put in the effort of filling myself up with the love I was waiting for someone else to supply.

The reality is this: Life is a churning, chaotic thing with no guarantees, and in the throws of the tumbling you might run into people to hold on to for a while. Sometimes for a night, sometimes for life.

And holding on to someone is a worthy thing. A wonderful thing. Something to look forward to and appreciate and embrace with your whole heart.

But the love you get from holding on to someone will never be as reliable as the love you can give yourself. Right here. Right now.

So here’s my advice. Be open to love, but don’t be empty for it.

Open, Not Empty - John Paul Brammer (via johnpaulbrammer)

(via herricaneamber)

  • 1st September
    2014
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Dinner for the first day of Whole 30 - baked chicken thighs, roasted sweet potato, cucumber and tomatoes. It’s in Tupperware because we’re restarting our Monday girls night tradition so I’m headed to a friends apartment. The only other thing I’ve eaten today is a smoothie with frozen cherries, almond milk, and chocolate protein powder. I just realized as I was typing that protein powder might not be Whole 30 approved…oops I’ll have to check. I don’t really care since it’s one of the only things that has been appetizing and doesn’t feel terrible in my stomach with all these issues I’m having. I’m gonna try to keep my meals pretty plain to see if it’s maybe a sudden intolerance to something. I also took Metamucil today in the hopes that it will help things to move along properly. I hope this dinner doesn’t make me feel too sick. I was just at CrossFit for 1.5 hours and I’m not even hungry. Still extremely bloated, gassy, burpy and semi nauseous. I would really like this to go away already.

Dinner for the first day of Whole 30 - baked chicken thighs, roasted sweet potato, cucumber and tomatoes. It’s in Tupperware because we’re restarting our Monday girls night tradition so I’m headed to a friends apartment. The only other thing I’ve eaten today is a smoothie with frozen cherries, almond milk, and chocolate protein powder. I just realized as I was typing that protein powder might not be Whole 30 approved…oops I’ll have to check. I don’t really care since it’s one of the only things that has been appetizing and doesn’t feel terrible in my stomach with all these issues I’m having. I’m gonna try to keep my meals pretty plain to see if it’s maybe a sudden intolerance to something. I also took Metamucil today in the hopes that it will help things to move along properly. I hope this dinner doesn’t make me feel too sick. I was just at CrossFit for 1.5 hours and I’m not even hungry. Still extremely bloated, gassy, burpy and semi nauseous. I would really like this to go away already.

  • 1st September
    2014
  • 01

Today we did CrossFit Total and I was unable to hit my old maxes on any of the lifts. Maxed out 20lbs under my old PRs on both deadlift and squat and 5lbs under on OHP. It’s not surprising given how infrequently I’ve been training this summer. Probably compounded by the fact that my tummy is still a war zone and I’ve only been able to eat one small meal a day since Wednesday. Still, it’s a pretty shitty feeling. I know I’ll get back there with hard work and I know it’s my own fault but it definitely sucked today.

  • 1st September
    2014
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  • 1st September
    2014
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BAHAHAHA just found these on my phone that I took on my journey home last night. Most of the friends still live down south so I was heading the other way when XFest ended last night and my roomie was with a boy (oOoOo) so I walked home alone across downtown. It was only like 12:30 so it was fine, don’t worry. It was quite an entertaining walk though. I wore my lovely new glasses I found on the ground the entire way, played Tegan and Sara on my phone while belting along to it and then peed in a sketchy alley as several cars drive past with headlights on…lol I thought I was more hidden. Then I stopped for about 10 minutes on the bridge and just listened to the sound of the river which was lovely. When I got home, my roomie told me all about this boy while I went to town on a huge container of heirloom tomatoes. Like who decides to eat tomatoes as drunk food!? And now I’m just sitting here imagining what a total nut job I looked like with those glasses and my singing to all the people I passed by. Hahaha ridiculous. 

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    2014
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  • 31st August
    2014
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  • 31st August
    2014
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Here have some selfies because I’m vain. Headed to the second day of XFest to see Cage The Elephant, Foster The People, Serena Ryder, Tegan and Sara (!!!!), and Arctic Monkeys. We missed Ms Mr oooops.

  • 31st August
    2014
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  • 31st August
    2014
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  • 31st August
    2014
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wittsandtitts:

Shout out to muscular men that are still kinda chubby

Y’all are slept on so much but idk why

That lumberjack build does things to me

I like knowing I can cuddle with you but you can still fuck someone up

(via barbellprincess)

  • 30th August
    2014
  • 30

We’re off to xfest! Most excited to see Stars, Fitz and the Tantrums, Death Cab, and Jack White! I’m not excited about the fact that I woke up extremely bloated, gassy, and nauseous again. WTF body! I can’t figure out what is causing all these gut issues. Not fun. I’ve barely eaten today but I’m gonna go make the best of today and enjoy the music!